I try to think that I am something more than flesh and bone
I'd like to know that all my fate just isn't carved in stone
I need the comfort of another human tight between my arms
I'm going under, please assure me that I caused no harm

My body is sober my mind not so much
It's been months since I've mustered up courage to touch
Any sliver of confidence, trickle of trust
I am silent and hopeless and dowsed in disgust
I get judged and put down for the way that I've acted
But confrontation leaves my body contracted
Am I getting better I think I'm distracted
Make sure that last thought gets redacted

I am fucked up past repair
I'm dead set on my despair
The only way my voice is heard
Is if it's shouted from the smallest mouth in the world

I try to feel something that’s different the same old drag
I wanna feel okay obliterating all that’s bad
I hope to someone that I can be rest assured one day
I’m going overboard with everything that I say

I’m in the right place but I still don’t fit in
And I have no idea just where to begin
‘Cause the story has layers and layers within
To retell the whole tale would be useless and grim
I still gnash at the bit of all of my regretting
Forget to appreciate that which I’m getting
And giving up hope in need of caressing
Is how I know my life is ending

I am fucked up past repair
I'm dead set on my despair
The only way my voice is heard
Is if it's shouted from the smallest mouth in the world

I am fucked up past repair
I'm dead set on my despair
The only way my voice is heard
Is if it's shouted from the smallest mouth in the world

But it keeps getting sewn right shut
The words just don’t travel far enough
For me to save what’s left inside

Some nights I just want to sleep, some nights I just wanna cry
Some nights I give up all hope, some nights I don’t even try
Some nights I make myself bleed, some nights I think that I won’t
Some nights I’m losing myself, some nights I’m still in control
Some nights I call up a friend, some nights I scream till I cough
Some nights I don’t speak at all, some nights I whisper real soft
Some nights I don’t feel okay, some nights I just don’t believe
Some nights I just wanna cry, some nights I just wanna sleep
Some nights I just wanna sleep