A beating heart never listens to its speed
I’m fleeting far from the places where I bleed
I burrow deep like an ever-growing seed
I follow suit when there’s something that I need
I am a casualty that’s casual to a fault
I am a caller that is never being called
I get accused for really being real ribald
But I’m enclosed to never speak of things at all

And if I fall you’re gonna fall
Lost it all, just lost it all
No parachute, no sense of flight
Say goodbye and say good night
I often think I’m just a grain
Rolling on the ground the same
As a tumbleweed will roll
There is dust within my soul

I wanna rise above, I’m not going under
I wanna burst apart as loud as the thunder
I wanna have belief in things that are good now
I wanna keep this on, I wanna keep this on
I wanna keep this on, I don’t wanna go down

There’s a force with impeccable distrust
That I feel gurgling up inside my guts
They tell me that I mustn’t but I must
And regrets trickle one by one off of my tongues
My bed’s the only place where I am truly bare
And when I sleep the sweat bleeding through my hair
I feel exposed and unattractive, unprepared
For all the people who stop in their tracks and stare

And if I writhe you’re gonna writhe
Lose your mind, just lose your mind
No padded room no pricey shrink
It feels so dangerous to think
I often feel a burning rash
Around my arms and down my back
I feel so tense, I can’t relax
And these are words I can’t retract

I wanna rise above, I’m not going under
I wanna burst apart as loud as the thunder
I wanna have belief in things that are good now
I wanna keep this on, I wanna keep this on
I wanna keep this on, I don’t wanna go down

I arose to the sound of some withering notes
Like I heard in the thousand-year wintery poles
Running through my cerebellum through the hairs upon my toes
It keeps crushing me and crushing me into its vital throes
I can’t take this anymore, I’ve got no convincing disguise
No artificial habitat or shields to cover up my eyes
My vulnerability is pecking at me, laughing as it thrives
On my deepest, darkest secrets that I don’t let into light