This winter has left me cold
And I'm done with myself
And life's getting old

I'll sleep when the sun comes up
And shines bright in my room
I hope it never does

My arms are still empty now
And I'm trying to fill
And get up from the ground

My legs are more weak than strong
And I'm walking away
Farewell and so long

It's a pattern I fall into, can't get myself out
I'm enveloped in my sadness, you don't know what it's about
It's your body that I dream of, the most beautiful of things
And I still get a little choked up every time I have to sing

And I still get a little choked up every time I have to sing
And I'm dreaming of white Christmases, but only half-asleep
I can give all that I have to you but that's not what you want
So I lay here in solitude with Jian Ghomeshi on in my headphones

The way that things appear
Aren't really there
And aren't even near

My life is leaning on
The crutch of my past
Mobility gone

I only smile when
I'm not in my home
And I'm dancing again

My heart will only beat
When it thinks it has
Something to receive

It's a pattern I fall into, can't get myself out
I'm enveloped in my sadness, you don't know what it's about
It's your body that I dream of, the most beautiful of things
And I still get a little choked up every time I have to sing

And I still get a little choked up every time I have to sing
And I'm dreaming of white Christmases, but only half-asleep
I can give all that I have to you but that's not what you want
So I lay here in solitude with Mark Kozelek on in my headphones

And this song isn't for anyone but me
But if the deaf choose to hear and the blind choose to see

I will tell them stories and act them all out
And then they will all know what my sadness is about
'Cause this isn't for effect or embellishment at all
My phone sits by me, sterile, waiting for a call

That I probably won't even answer

I'm married to loneliness
And when I lift up the veil
I know I can fix this

But I wasn't born with the right kind of skill set
To make it all better
And I long for attention of the intimate persuasion
And if she can be obtained then I want to go get her

And I will hold her till the planets fall
And I will hold her till I feel nothing at all