When I was younger I was told that I could have any girl I want
‘Cause I played music and I was so debonair and oh so smart
But what I didn’t know is just how wrong both of my parents were
And I’ve spent all my adolescence sad and questioning my worth

I honestly think it’s a little bit destructive on my part
To try and find another human being to reconstruct my heart
There’s gotta be over a million fish swimming in this sea
And I’m the sludge that is created from the oil refinery

I try so hard to just be me
And find just the right words to say
But everything has been backfiring
And I’m left here to decay

If I once ever had a thought
You’d be the one to mend my heart
I’m sorry for my actions
‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not

And as my hope depleted I just kept getting told to wait it out
And I’ve been patient but sometimes I just can’t shut my stupid mouth
And I will try to just be nice if I think maybe you would give
At least a chance to me but history reveals you never will

What do I have to do to prove that I am worthy of someone?
‘Cause there is always still somebody that I’m always thinking of
And I will get obsessed and never let it go until I know
That there is not sliver of a chance of any sort of hope

I try so hard to just be me
And find just the right words to say
But everything has been backfiring
And I’m left here to decay

If I once ever had a thought
You’d be the one to mend my heart
I’m sorry for my actions
‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not

And when I think about your body
All my nerves seem to go tense
And when I think of us together
It’s beautiful but I know you don’t think that it makes sense

And I am probably forever doomed to watch you from the sideline seats
‘Cause you will never call me in and I will just accept defeat
‘Cause what’s the point of being persistent if I’m always gonna lose
And what’s the point of even trying if I can’t ever have you

I try so hard to just be me
And find just the right words to say
But everything has been backfiring
And I’m left here to decay

If I once ever had a thought
You’d be the one to mend my heart
I’m sorry for my actions
‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not