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Put Your Trust In Scum

by L. Mounts

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for this damn honest and raw album.

I'm so in love with this tape <3 Favorite track: Shout Out To Every Girl I Thought I Loved.
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1.
It's two in the morning, I'm alone again And lying awake in my childhood bed And listening to records made by my friends I hope one day I'll be that good But now I just worry in lethargy's grip I'll find one emotion and just stick to it And some days I wish I believed I could wish And not try to leak out blood 'Cause I can't cry no matter how hard I try I just need one release to finally feel complete The weekend was filled with social potential But I just stayed home with my instrumentals And constantly questioned my human credentials Cause I just felt like stone My muscles got tense, my breathing got heavy My face got all red and my body so sweaty And I thought that the world could be coming to get me But I was still alone 'Cause I can't cry no matter how hard I try I just need one release to finally feel complete Till then I clench my hands, shape to a firmer stance Till I can loosen up, I'll just keep my mouth shut Pardon my heart it hasn't been loved in so long It's falling apart with each note that I sing in this song The pieces are stretched and contorted way beyond repair And I try to get someone to fix it but nobody's there Nobody's there
2.
I'll erase any evidence that I had long hair If it meant that I could get just one girl to stare Without the constant feeling of condescendence that they used to And I could forget all the things that I've felt All my worries would dissipate and sadness would melt And I'd never refer to this life as something I'd been abused through’ Wouldn't it be so great if I could smile one day? Wouldn't it be so grand if I could hold your hand? How can I feel more blessed if I'm always deemed a mess? How can I feel more in tune if I'm miles away from you? I question my worth while you question my honesty This isn't the first time I've felt this and secondly I'm feeling more weak as each day passes by I hope that one day I’ll sincerely get better But my fingers keep trembling while writing each letter Of every word in every single line Wouldn't it be so great if I could smile one day? Wouldn't it be so grand if I could hold your hand? How can I feel more blessed if I'm always deemed a mess? How can I feel more in tune if I'm miles away from you? Pardon my heart it hasn't been loved in so long It's falling apart with each note that I sing in this song The pieces are stretched and contorted way beyond repair And I try to get someone to fix it but nobody's there
3.
Stationary 04:48
Well when it kills you yeah you won’t stop breathing You will learn to keep control And when you suffer well you won’t stop dreaming Of things that were beautiful So tell me why can’t I persist Try to feel differently than this I guess it’s hard to change your ways When everything just feels the same Will you take me as I am? I’ll take you no matter what Will you deal with my mind And all my harsh perverted thoughts? Is there something about me That you would want me change? I would do it in an instant If I wouldn’t feel the same Well when it grabs you and it won’t stop holding You will learn to fight it off And when your heart is hurt and feeling broken You will try to make it stop So tell me why I just can’t learn To accept my own self-worth It’s hardly easy feeling okay When everything just feels the same Will you take me as I am? I’ll take you no matter what Will you deal with my mind And all my harsh perverted thoughts? Is there something about me That you would want me change? I would do it in an instant If I wouldn’t feel the same I’m tired of waiting Anticipating Nothing at all
4.
I’ve been searching online all night Trying to find somebody that’s right Someone who might wanna fight for me I’ve got nothing to offer you But a mediocre body in worn red shoes And a voice that’s rough and sometimes nasally I spend so much time moping on my own Wishing I could feel much less alone But the problem’s me and I just can’t hone Proper etiquette to take you home My mouth’s sewn shut ‘cause my brain is full Of words that I can’t seem to babble And I need another ex-girlfriend Like I need a hole in my skull Well I never really liked being by myself Just me and a dresser and a record shelf And a tape deck that doesn’t work so well anymore I’ve got nothing to write home about But crooked grin in a dried up mouth And an empty wallet when I walk out the door I spend so much time moping on my own Wishing I could feel much less alone But the problem’s me and I just can’t hone Proper etiquette to take you home Got a chord progression that I stole From a Bob Mould record or a Costello But I know I’ll never impress you Till I get a hole in my skull I will be faithful to you And I will always tell you the truth You look great in that dress But baby girl my head’s a mess I spend so much time moping on my own Wishing I could feel much less alone But the problem’s me and I just can’t hone Proper etiquette to take you home And the words engraved in my tombstone Will just reflect the way I moaned About how every ex-girlfriend Cost me a hole in my skull
5.
When I was younger I was told that I could have any girl I want ‘Cause I played music and I was so debonair and oh so smart But what I didn’t know is just how wrong both of my parents were And I’ve spent all my adolescence sad and questioning my worth I honestly think it’s a little bit destructive on my part To try and find another human being to reconstruct my heart There’s gotta be over a million fish swimming in this sea And I’m the sludge that is created from the oil refinery I try so hard to just be me And find just the right words to say But everything has been backfiring And I’m left here to decay If I once ever had a thought You’d be the one to mend my heart I’m sorry for my actions ‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not And as my hope depleted I just kept getting told to wait it out And I’ve been patient but sometimes I just can’t shut my stupid mouth And I will try to just be nice if I think maybe you would give At least a chance to me but history reveals you never will What do I have to do to prove that I am worthy of someone? ‘Cause there is always still somebody that I’m always thinking of And I will get obsessed and never let it go until I know That there is not sliver of a chance of any sort of hope I try so hard to just be me And find just the right words to say But everything has been backfiring And I’m left here to decay If I once ever had a thought You’d be the one to mend my heart I’m sorry for my actions ‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not And when I think about your body All my nerves seem to go tense And when I think of us together It’s beautiful but I know you don’t think that it makes sense And I am probably forever doomed to watch you from the sideline seats ‘Cause you will never call me in and I will just accept defeat ‘Cause what’s the point of being persistent if I’m always gonna lose And what’s the point of even trying if I can’t ever have you I try so hard to just be me And find just the right words to say But everything has been backfiring And I’m left here to decay If I once ever had a thought You’d be the one to mend my heart I’m sorry for my actions ‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not
6.
I’m in the mood for getting better, getting back in the groove I’m waiting for you, my heart is hurting tell me what can I do? The later it gets, I sit here wondering ‘bout my latest regrets I’m placing my bets, the slowest runner’s gettin’ royalty checks I’m passed out in my room listening to some tunes and watching the sun come up I got blood on my hands from selfish demands can’t ever keep my mouth shut I come home from a show and I’m still alone and I got nowhere to go Feel my brain getting slow, my stomach gets low, heartbreaking in stereo I’m in the mood for taking chances that I’ll need to improve The slightest bit rude but not offensive I’m just speaking the truth I open my eyes and see the day has gone and turned into night Seems about right I’d be loosely awake and not sleeping tight I’m passed out in my room listening to some tunes and watching the sun come up I got blood on my hands from selfish demands can’t ever keep my mouth shut They can’t battle my bones they’re harder than stone and they surround my soul Shake and rattle roll with the punches I know, heartbreaking in stereo I’m in the mood for something subtle just to give me clue I’m talking to you but you don’t even really want me to I cover my lips and hold ‘em tight enough just so they stick I crumble to bits then reassemble with some parts that I missed I’m passed out in my room listening to some tunes and watching the sun come up I got blood on my hands from selfish demands can’t ever keep my mouth shut I can’t seem to disown this feeling of loneliness I wanna explode Everything in my home’s bleak deafening tone, heartbreaking in stereo
7.
A forward thinker moving backwards Bad memories stick like rotten gum Losing control shortly thereafter I’m nothing but my father’s son A lineage that curves around me Bad tendencies are all I have Gaining a sense of understanding I’m nothing but nothing intact A shining future sheathed by darkness Bad eyes and ears will soon be gone Leaving behind my moral compass I’m nothing but my father’s son Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive A lonely runner struck with failure Good theories never followed up Losing friends due to erasure I’m nothing but my father’s son A note without a set location Good talents never put to use Gaining trust from your citation I’m nothing but a kid misused A leech that never got its teeth in Good passion never getting blood Leaving the pool I dipped my feet in I’m nothing but my father’s son Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive A fire put to rest by water Ugly faces in the sun Losing my chance to breathe your daughters I’m nothing but my father’s son A spacecraft void of every function Ugly children on the moon Gaining all kinds of reduction I’m nothing but your rusted tooth A stable filled with burning horses Forced to inhale their pungent dung Leaving out what’s most important I’m nothing but my father’s son Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive Oh, these feelings come in waves And I’m caught in with the tide Father told me to be brave Keep composure, stay alive
8.
Contender 04:57
Once I had a dream of you and I and we were one and felt so fine I miss that dream, I miss the scenes that floated through my head inside I felt so warm and conscious now I feel so cold and nauseous I wish I could feel less worthless and that people could endure this Hey man you don’t deserve her It’s been my life’s work trying not to get hurt But you have hurt me and I’m still lonely How will I cope now? Rinse my hands with soap now I need a cleansing, need you tell me If you will love me, or you will leave me Once I sat beside you with my arm around your neck and shoulders I still miss the scent and structure of your lovely skin’s soft texture This is not a plea to get you in my life and out of his but You’d be so much better being closer to my body’s sick strut Hey man you don’t deserve her It’s been my life’s work trying not to get hurt But you have hurt me and I’m still lonely How will I cope now? Rinse my hands with soap now I need a cleansing, need you tell me If you will love me, or you will leave me I apologize for coming on too strong and waiting way too long To tell you all of this but I was just too scared and ignorant I missed my window and you’re leaving soon so I will just not go Into detail of how I feel it doesn’t matter. Really. Hey man you don’t deserve her It’s been my life’s work trying not to get hurt But you have hurt me and I’m still lonely How will I cope now? Rinse my hands with soap now I need a cleansing, need you tell me If you will love me, or you will leave me I know that you’ll leave me, you were never with me Never wanted to be, and for that I’m sorry I had to get angry, I had to get fussy I just felt so dumb feeling like I was a Sort of contender for your love
9.
Kitty gotta run from a raccoon Kitty gotta run now fast Kitty gotta hide in the full moon Kitty just gotta get past Kitty gotta stick out this one Kitty gotta make it through Kitty gotta stand up and be strong Kitty knows what to do Take a step outside and hear it wail and moan and Fight hard for its life, just leave the window open Just can’t close my eyes and ears, I keep on hoping That the little guy is gonna make it out alive Kitty run along on the front yard Kitty hide in the bushes across the street Kitty gonna fight back and fight hard Kitty will win and won’t accept defeat Kitty makes a break for the big tree Kitty got one more chance to take the crown Kitty gotta fight for his family Kitty is gonna take that raccoon down Take a step outside and hear it wail and moan and Fight hard for its life, just leave the window open Just can’t close my eyes and ears, I keep on hoping That the little guy is gonna make it out alive Kitty couldn’t run from a raccoon Kitty didn’t run too fast Kitty couldn’t hide in the full moon Kitty’s now gone and passed But kitty was damn good fighter Kitty fought with everything he had And though kitty didn’t come out the wiser Kitty still fought like one damn ruthless cat Oh I’ll remember little kitty and the way he did persist And how the raccoons in my city are vicious little shits
10.
Hold Me Down 06:14
hold me down Watchin’ all the little clouds go by Watchin’ all of them up in the sky Waitin’ for a little rain to come Waitin’ for a storm to shield the sun Will somebody take me out tonight? And let out all my regrets inside And stand out in the rain as it gets dark outside Feelin’ just a little sad today Feelin’ like I wanna get away Can you place your hand in mine okay? Can you press your lips on mine today? Will somebody take me out tonight? And let out all my regrets inside And stand out in the rain as it gets dark outside Hold me down Hold me down and I… Hold me down And never, you never… Hold me down Hold me down and I… Hold me down And never, you never Never, you never Never, you never Never, never let go
11.
I saw your face again last night It filled my eyes with wanderin’ fright And it felt different to see you there alone I left my hand upon the rest To see if you would suggest For me to move or would you play along I know that you’re leaving soon This might be the last I’ll see of you But I’d like to to feel your fingers before you’ve gone I saw your face again last night It really took me by surprise ‘Cause I hadn’t seen it in a while And though it looked a little pale And painful you know that I’d sail The seven seas of Earth to make you smile I know you’re trying to feel okay So once before your final day I’d like to know if you’d fit in my style I saw your face again last night ’Twas still the most gorgeous sight I’d forgotten what it felt like to hear your voice The words uprising from your throat Almost made me stiff and choked ‘Cause I had so many words I could not deploy It’s wrong of me to think these thoughts And for a moment I thought I stopped But my heart and mind are saying I have no choice
12.
Will you fight or will you fall? Will you not make it at all? Well your summer’s almost gone And you’ve had your bits of fun Settling some kind of score Burning down I-94 Nothing’s faster than this car Nothing’s harder than this heart If I gave you the key To open up a door that’s miles away from me Would you try and twist the lock? Or would you throw the key away leaving it lost? I’m sorry for the way I acted I’m sorry for the things I said Sorry for being so apathetic But you probably just want distance instead Will you tell me that I’m trash? Will I bow down when you lash? Well I’m spouting all these tales Inconsistent and unreal Derailing my train of thought Being someone I am not I write nothing that makes sense And at nobody’s expense If I gave you a sign To let you know that I want you to be mine Would you blindly make the turn? And be thankful for what you never learned? I’m sorry for the way I acted I’m sorry for the things I said Sorry for being so apathetic But you probably just want distance instead I’m sorry this has no direction Sorry my face is turning red Sorry I tried to get attention I probably just need distance instead From myself, from my mind From this town, from this life From your face, from this house I just need to get out I’m sorry for the way I acted I’m sorry for the things I said Sorry for being so apathetic But you probably just want distance instead Regrets seething through my veins now Hope your life is good out there And though for now I plan on staying One day I’m gonna get out of here I’m sorry for the way I acted I’m sorry for the things I said Sorry for being so apathetic But you probably just want distance instead I’m sorry this has no direction Sorry my face is turning red Sorry I tried to get attention I probably just need distance instead
13.
Put your trust in scum, baby Put your trust in scum And give me your love Give me your love Put your trust in scum I’ve got these words tattooed to the roots of my gums I suck at life while you suck on your thumbs I’m a billboard kid for the restless and dumb Put your trust in scum, baby Put your trust in scum And give me your love Give me your love Put your trust in scum I’ve got a grip locked tight to the brim of your blood I sit and reach while you sit and you shrug I’m a broken man demoted to dust Put your trust in scum, baby Put your trust in scum And give me your love Give me your love Put your trust in scum I’ve got these words tattooed to the roots of my gums I suck at life while you suck on your thumbs I’m a billboard kid for the restless and dumb
14.
Let me hold you in my sludge I can never get enough Let me hold you in my sludge I'm knee deep things I can't be rid of I am a man I am a sewer-sonic man I've got the power to indulge you in the less fine things in life I am a man I am a creature-centric man I've got the skills to let you know about the bad things on my mind I am a man I am a slimy kind of man I've got the self-esteem of a herd of millions of dying rats I am a man I am a harsh and brittle man I've got the pieces but they just won't fit together in my hands Let me hold you in my sludge I can never get enough Let me hold you in my sludge I'm waist deep things I can't be rid of I am a man I am a scaly, heartless man I've got the blood but I don't have the room to store it in my veins I am a man I am a ruthless, bitter man I've got a bit of self-control but rarely ever have restraint I am a man I am a sickly, stagnant man I've got the grip to hold you tightly till I crush you in my arms I am a man I am a hardened, unkempt man I've got the distance near my chest to always let you go unharmed Let me hold you in my sludge I can never get enough Let me hold you in my sludge I'm neck deep things I can't be rid of I am a man I am a dirty, rotten man I've got the stench of broken hearts and disappointment on my breath I am a man I am a useless, scathing man I've got the trying down but not the follow through that's at the end I am a man I am a tried and tired man I've got the weaknesses of outcast kids that never made the cut I am a man I am a frightened, frightening man I've got the passion in my heart Please let me hold you in my sludge
15.
These colors are not what I’ve known These are much too bright and I feel more alone than ever Got this change in my home It is much too stark and it hurts my own maneuvers There’s a change in my tone It’s a bit more brash, not nearly as humble as I’d like These bricks that came out from stone The foundation of what makes my body rumble late at night I want you in here I want you to be near me A feeling severe Enough, I hope you hear me out Your face is oh so bright It brings up my day and it opens my eyes to attraction Got this pain in my sides That I think you can fix, you could save my life in an instant There’s a pain in my mind You can kill it away or you can leave me to die in the driveway Your voice is oh so nice It touches me in ways that I can barely describe, it’s a pathway I want you in here I want you to be near me A feeling severe Enough, I hope you hear me out

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THIS ALBUM IS THE AMALGAMATION OF A SUMMER OF LOVE, LOSS, LONELINESS, CELEBRATION, HEARTBREAK, REPLENISHING, INFLUENCE, NEW EXPERIENCES, OLD FRIENDS, THOUGHTS, IDEAS, PLEAS, AND CONFESSIONS. IT IS HERE FOR YOU, WHENEVER YOU NEED IT TO BE.

A MULTITUDE OF THANKS ARE IN ORDER TO MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND INSPIRATIONS. THIS IS NOT THE END. THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF SOMETHING NEW. THINGS WILL CONTINUE TO CHANGE AND ADJUST IN TURN. “NO HOPE = NO FEAR.” KEEP THIS SACRED.

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released September 26, 2014

AN ALBUM RECORDED AND RELEASED IN 2014.
ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY L. MOUNTS.
RECORDED AT WIDOW MALLEY’S IN WILMETTE, IL.
THIS IS FPR #078.

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Singer of songs. Abstainer of substances. Bringer of plagues.

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