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Lethargy's Grip I
04:34
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It's two in the morning, I'm alone again
And lying awake in my childhood bed
And listening to records made by my friends
I hope one day I'll be that good
But now I just worry in lethargy's grip
I'll find one emotion and just stick to it
And some days I wish I believed I could wish
And not try to leak out blood
'Cause I can't cry no matter how hard I try
I just need one release to finally feel complete
The weekend was filled with social potential
But I just stayed home with my instrumentals
And constantly questioned my human credentials
Cause I just felt like stone
My muscles got tense, my breathing got heavy
My face got all red and my body so sweaty
And I thought that the world could be coming to get me
But I was still alone
'Cause I can't cry no matter how hard I try
I just need one release to finally feel complete
Till then I clench my hands, shape to a firmer stance
Till I can loosen up, I'll just keep my mouth shut
Pardon my heart it hasn't been loved in so long
It's falling apart with each note that I sing in this song
The pieces are stretched and contorted way beyond repair
And I try to get someone to fix it but nobody's there
Nobody's there
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Lethargy's Grip II
03:44
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I'll erase any evidence that I had long hair
If it meant that I could get just one girl to stare
Without the constant feeling of condescendence that they used to
And I could forget all the things that I've felt
All my worries would dissipate and sadness would melt
And I'd never refer to this life as something I'd been abused through’
Wouldn't it be so great if I could smile one day?
Wouldn't it be so grand if I could hold your hand?
How can I feel more blessed if I'm always deemed a mess?
How can I feel more in tune if I'm miles away from you?
I question my worth while you question my honesty
This isn't the first time I've felt this and secondly
I'm feeling more weak as each day passes by
I hope that one day I’ll sincerely get better
But my fingers keep trembling while writing each letter
Of every word in every single line
Wouldn't it be so great if I could smile one day?
Wouldn't it be so grand if I could hold your hand?
How can I feel more blessed if I'm always deemed a mess?
How can I feel more in tune if I'm miles away from you?
Pardon my heart it hasn't been loved in so long
It's falling apart with each note that I sing in this song
The pieces are stretched and contorted way beyond repair
And I try to get someone to fix it but nobody's there
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Stationary
04:48
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Well when it kills you yeah you won’t stop breathing
You will learn to keep control
And when you suffer well you won’t stop dreaming
Of things that were beautiful
So tell me why can’t I persist
Try to feel differently than this
I guess it’s hard to change your ways
When everything just feels the same
Will you take me as I am?
I’ll take you no matter what
Will you deal with my mind
And all my harsh perverted thoughts?
Is there something about me
That you would want me change?
I would do it in an instant
If I wouldn’t feel the same
Well when it grabs you and it won’t stop holding
You will learn to fight it off
And when your heart is hurt and feeling broken
You will try to make it stop
So tell me why I just can’t learn
To accept my own self-worth
It’s hardly easy feeling okay
When everything just feels the same
Will you take me as I am?
I’ll take you no matter what
Will you deal with my mind
And all my harsh perverted thoughts?
Is there something about me
That you would want me change?
I would do it in an instant
If I wouldn’t feel the same
I’m tired of waiting
Anticipating
Nothing at all
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Hole In My Skull
03:28
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I’ve been searching online all night
Trying to find somebody that’s right
Someone who might wanna fight for me
I’ve got nothing to offer you
But a mediocre body in worn red shoes
And a voice that’s rough and sometimes nasally
I spend so much time moping on my own
Wishing I could feel much less alone
But the problem’s me and I just can’t hone
Proper etiquette to take you home
My mouth’s sewn shut ‘cause my brain is full
Of words that I can’t seem to babble
And I need another ex-girlfriend
Like I need a hole in my skull
Well I never really liked being by myself
Just me and a dresser and a record shelf
And a tape deck that doesn’t work so well anymore
I’ve got nothing to write home about
But crooked grin in a dried up mouth
And an empty wallet when I walk out the door
I spend so much time moping on my own
Wishing I could feel much less alone
But the problem’s me and I just can’t hone
Proper etiquette to take you home
Got a chord progression that I stole
From a Bob Mould record or a Costello
But I know I’ll never impress you
Till I get a hole in my skull
I will be faithful to you
And I will always tell you the truth
You look great in that dress
But baby girl my head’s a mess
I spend so much time moping on my own
Wishing I could feel much less alone
But the problem’s me and I just can’t hone
Proper etiquette to take you home
And the words engraved in my tombstone
Will just reflect the way I moaned
About how every ex-girlfriend
Cost me a hole in my skull
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When I was younger I was told that I could have any girl I want
‘Cause I played music and I was so debonair and oh so smart
But what I didn’t know is just how wrong both of my parents were
And I’ve spent all my adolescence sad and questioning my worth
I honestly think it’s a little bit destructive on my part
To try and find another human being to reconstruct my heart
There’s gotta be over a million fish swimming in this sea
And I’m the sludge that is created from the oil refinery
I try so hard to just be me
And find just the right words to say
But everything has been backfiring
And I’m left here to decay
If I once ever had a thought
You’d be the one to mend my heart
I’m sorry for my actions
‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not
And as my hope depleted I just kept getting told to wait it out
And I’ve been patient but sometimes I just can’t shut my stupid mouth
And I will try to just be nice if I think maybe you would give
At least a chance to me but history reveals you never will
What do I have to do to prove that I am worthy of someone?
‘Cause there is always still somebody that I’m always thinking of
And I will get obsessed and never let it go until I know
That there is not sliver of a chance of any sort of hope
I try so hard to just be me
And find just the right words to say
But everything has been backfiring
And I’m left here to decay
If I once ever had a thought
You’d be the one to mend my heart
I’m sorry for my actions
‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not
And when I think about your body
All my nerves seem to go tense
And when I think of us together
It’s beautiful but I know you don’t think that it makes sense
And I am probably forever doomed to watch you from the sideline seats
‘Cause you will never call me in and I will just accept defeat
‘Cause what’s the point of being persistent if I’m always gonna lose
And what’s the point of even trying if I can’t ever have you
I try so hard to just be me
And find just the right words to say
But everything has been backfiring
And I’m left here to decay
If I once ever had a thought
You’d be the one to mend my heart
I’m sorry for my actions
‘Cause I knew the whole time that you were not
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Heartbreaking In Stereo
05:04
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I’m in the mood for getting better, getting back in the groove
I’m waiting for you, my heart is hurting tell me what can I do?
The later it gets, I sit here wondering ‘bout my latest regrets
I’m placing my bets, the slowest runner’s gettin’ royalty checks
I’m passed out in my room listening to some tunes and watching the sun come up
I got blood on my hands from selfish demands can’t ever keep my mouth shut
I come home from a show and I’m still alone and I got nowhere to go
Feel my brain getting slow, my stomach gets low, heartbreaking in stereo
I’m in the mood for taking chances that I’ll need to improve
The slightest bit rude but not offensive I’m just speaking the truth
I open my eyes and see the day has gone and turned into night
Seems about right I’d be loosely awake and not sleeping tight
I’m passed out in my room listening to some tunes and watching the sun come up
I got blood on my hands from selfish demands can’t ever keep my mouth shut
They can’t battle my bones they’re harder than stone and they surround my soul
Shake and rattle roll with the punches I know, heartbreaking in stereo
I’m in the mood for something subtle just to give me clue
I’m talking to you but you don’t even really want me to
I cover my lips and hold ‘em tight enough just so they stick
I crumble to bits then reassemble with some parts that I missed
I’m passed out in my room listening to some tunes and watching the sun come up
I got blood on my hands from selfish demands can’t ever keep my mouth shut
I can’t seem to disown this feeling of loneliness I wanna explode
Everything in my home’s bleak deafening tone, heartbreaking in stereo
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Keep It In The Family
06:26
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A forward thinker moving backwards
Bad memories stick like rotten gum
Losing control shortly thereafter
I’m nothing but my father’s son
A lineage that curves around me
Bad tendencies are all I have
Gaining a sense of understanding
I’m nothing but nothing intact
A shining future sheathed by darkness
Bad eyes and ears will soon be gone
Leaving behind my moral compass
I’m nothing but my father’s son
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
A lonely runner struck with failure
Good theories never followed up
Losing friends due to erasure
I’m nothing but my father’s son
A note without a set location
Good talents never put to use
Gaining trust from your citation
I’m nothing but a kid misused
A leech that never got its teeth in
Good passion never getting blood
Leaving the pool I dipped my feet in
I’m nothing but my father’s son
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
A fire put to rest by water
Ugly faces in the sun
Losing my chance to breathe your daughters
I’m nothing but my father’s son
A spacecraft void of every function
Ugly children on the moon
Gaining all kinds of reduction
I’m nothing but your rusted tooth
A stable filled with burning horses
Forced to inhale their pungent dung
Leaving out what’s most important
I’m nothing but my father’s son
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
Oh, these feelings come in waves
And I’m caught in with the tide
Father told me to be brave
Keep composure, stay alive
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Contender
04:57
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Once I had a dream of you and I and we were one and felt so fine
I miss that dream, I miss the scenes that floated through my head inside
I felt so warm and conscious now I feel so cold and nauseous
I wish I could feel less worthless and that people could endure this
Hey man you don’t deserve her
It’s been my life’s work trying not to get hurt
But you have hurt me and I’m still lonely
How will I cope now? Rinse my hands with soap now
I need a cleansing, need you tell me
If you will love me, or you will leave me
Once I sat beside you with my arm around your neck and shoulders
I still miss the scent and structure of your lovely skin’s soft texture
This is not a plea to get you in my life and out of his but
You’d be so much better being closer to my body’s sick strut
Hey man you don’t deserve her
It’s been my life’s work trying not to get hurt
But you have hurt me and I’m still lonely
How will I cope now? Rinse my hands with soap now
I need a cleansing, need you tell me
If you will love me, or you will leave me
I apologize for coming on too strong and waiting way too long
To tell you all of this but I was just too scared and ignorant
I missed my window and you’re leaving soon so I will just not go
Into detail of how I feel it doesn’t matter. Really.
Hey man you don’t deserve her
It’s been my life’s work trying not to get hurt
But you have hurt me and I’m still lonely
How will I cope now? Rinse my hands with soap now
I need a cleansing, need you tell me
If you will love me, or you will leave me
I know that you’ll leave me, you were never with me
Never wanted to be, and for that I’m sorry
I had to get angry, I had to get fussy
I just felt so dumb feeling like I was a
Sort of contender for your love
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Fight, Kitty! Fight!!
02:56
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Kitty gotta run from a raccoon
Kitty gotta run now fast
Kitty gotta hide in the full moon
Kitty just gotta get past
Kitty gotta stick out this one
Kitty gotta make it through
Kitty gotta stand up and be strong
Kitty knows what to do
Take a step outside and hear it wail and moan and
Fight hard for its life, just leave the window open
Just can’t close my eyes and ears, I keep on hoping
That the little guy is gonna make it out alive
Kitty run along on the front yard
Kitty hide in the bushes across the street
Kitty gonna fight back and fight hard
Kitty will win and won’t accept defeat
Kitty makes a break for the big tree
Kitty got one more chance to take the crown
Kitty gotta fight for his family
Kitty is gonna take that raccoon down
Take a step outside and hear it wail and moan and
Fight hard for its life, just leave the window open
Just can’t close my eyes and ears, I keep on hoping
That the little guy is gonna make it out alive
Kitty couldn’t run from a raccoon
Kitty didn’t run too fast
Kitty couldn’t hide in the full moon
Kitty’s now gone and passed
But kitty was damn good fighter
Kitty fought with everything he had
And though kitty didn’t come out the wiser
Kitty still fought like one damn ruthless cat
Oh I’ll remember little kitty and the way he did persist
And how the raccoons in my city are vicious little shits
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Hold Me Down
06:14
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hold me down
Watchin’ all the little clouds go by
Watchin’ all of them up in the sky
Waitin’ for a little rain to come
Waitin’ for a storm to shield the sun
Will somebody take me out tonight?
And let out all my regrets inside
And stand out in the rain as it gets dark outside
Feelin’ just a little sad today
Feelin’ like I wanna get away
Can you place your hand in mine okay?
Can you press your lips on mine today?
Will somebody take me out tonight?
And let out all my regrets inside
And stand out in the rain as it gets dark outside
Hold me down
Hold me down and I…
Hold me down
And never, you never…
Hold me down
Hold me down and I…
Hold me down
And never, you never
Never, you never
Never, you never
Never, never let go
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I saw your face again last night
It filled my eyes with wanderin’ fright
And it felt different to see you there alone
I left my hand upon the rest
To see if you would suggest
For me to move or would you play along
I know that you’re leaving soon
This might be the last I’ll see of you
But I’d like to to feel your fingers before you’ve gone
I saw your face again last night
It really took me by surprise
‘Cause I hadn’t seen it in a while
And though it looked a little pale
And painful you know that I’d sail
The seven seas of Earth to make you smile
I know you’re trying to feel okay
So once before your final day
I’d like to know if you’d fit in my style
I saw your face again last night
’Twas still the most gorgeous sight
I’d forgotten what it felt like to hear your voice
The words uprising from your throat
Almost made me stiff and choked
‘Cause I had so many words I could not deploy
It’s wrong of me to think these thoughts
And for a moment I thought I stopped
But my heart and mind are saying I have no choice
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Distance Instead
06:13
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Will you fight or will you fall?
Will you not make it at all?
Well your summer’s almost gone
And you’ve had your bits of fun
Settling some kind of score
Burning down I-94
Nothing’s faster than this car
Nothing’s harder than this heart
If I gave you the key
To open up a door that’s miles away from me
Would you try and twist the lock?
Or would you throw the key away leaving it lost?
I’m sorry for the way I acted
I’m sorry for the things I said
Sorry for being so apathetic
But you probably just want distance instead
Will you tell me that I’m trash?
Will I bow down when you lash?
Well I’m spouting all these tales
Inconsistent and unreal
Derailing my train of thought
Being someone I am not
I write nothing that makes sense
And at nobody’s expense
If I gave you a sign
To let you know that I want you to be mine
Would you blindly make the turn?
And be thankful for what you never learned?
I’m sorry for the way I acted
I’m sorry for the things I said
Sorry for being so apathetic
But you probably just want distance instead
I’m sorry this has no direction
Sorry my face is turning red
Sorry I tried to get attention
I probably just need distance instead
From myself, from my mind
From this town, from this life
From your face, from this house
I just need to get out
I’m sorry for the way I acted
I’m sorry for the things I said
Sorry for being so apathetic
But you probably just want distance instead
Regrets seething through my veins now
Hope your life is good out there
And though for now I plan on staying
One day I’m gonna get out of here
I’m sorry for the way I acted
I’m sorry for the things I said
Sorry for being so apathetic
But you probably just want distance instead
I’m sorry this has no direction
Sorry my face is turning red
Sorry I tried to get attention
I probably just need distance instead
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Put your trust in scum, baby
Put your trust in scum
And give me your love
Give me your love
Put your trust in scum
I’ve got these words tattooed to the roots of my gums
I suck at life while you suck on your thumbs
I’m a billboard kid for the restless and dumb
Put your trust in scum, baby
Put your trust in scum
And give me your love
Give me your love
Put your trust in scum
I’ve got a grip locked tight to the brim of your blood
I sit and reach while you sit and you shrug
I’m a broken man demoted to dust
Put your trust in scum, baby
Put your trust in scum
And give me your love
Give me your love
Put your trust in scum
I’ve got these words tattooed to the roots of my gums
I suck at life while you suck on your thumbs
I’m a billboard kid for the restless and dumb
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Let me hold you in my sludge
I can never get enough
Let me hold you in my sludge
I'm knee deep things I can't be rid of
I am a man
I am a sewer-sonic man
I've got the power to indulge you in the less fine things in life
I am a man
I am a creature-centric man
I've got the skills to let you know about the bad things on my mind
I am a man
I am a slimy kind of man
I've got the self-esteem of a herd of millions of dying rats
I am a man
I am a harsh and brittle man
I've got the pieces but they just won't fit together in my hands
Let me hold you in my sludge
I can never get enough
Let me hold you in my sludge
I'm waist deep things I can't be rid of
I am a man
I am a scaly, heartless man
I've got the blood but I don't have the room to store it in my veins
I am a man
I am a ruthless, bitter man
I've got a bit of self-control but rarely ever have restraint
I am a man
I am a sickly, stagnant man
I've got the grip to hold you tightly till I crush you in my arms
I am a man
I am a hardened, unkempt man
I've got the distance near my chest to always let you go unharmed
Let me hold you in my sludge
I can never get enough
Let me hold you in my sludge
I'm neck deep things I can't be rid of
I am a man
I am a dirty, rotten man
I've got the stench of broken hearts and disappointment on my breath
I am a man
I am a useless, scathing man
I've got the trying down but not the follow through that's at the end
I am a man
I am a tried and tired man
I've got the weaknesses of outcast kids that never made the cut
I am a man
I am a frightened, frightening man
I've got the passion in my heart
Please let me hold you in my sludge
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These colors are not what I’ve known
These are much too bright and I feel more alone than ever
Got this change in my home
It is much too stark and it hurts my own maneuvers
There’s a change in my tone
It’s a bit more brash, not nearly as humble as I’d like
These bricks that came out from stone
The foundation of what makes my body rumble late at night
I want you in here
I want you to be near me
A feeling severe
Enough, I hope you hear me out
Your face is oh so bright
It brings up my day and it opens my eyes to attraction
Got this pain in my sides
That I think you can fix, you could save my life in an instant
There’s a pain in my mind
You can kill it away or you can leave me to die in the driveway
Your voice is oh so nice
It touches me in ways that I can barely describe, it’s a pathway
I want you in here
I want you to be near me
A feeling severe
Enough, I hope you hear me out
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L. Mounts Chicago, Illinois
Singer of songs. Abstainer of substances. Bringer of plagues.
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