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I’m shallow and broken, you’ve heard this one before
And nothing that I do is gonna settle the score
Between love and hatred of me and my body
And peers and acquaintances and everyone around me
I feel useless a lot but it’s not justified
‘Cause I’m stupid and self-obsessed and so unpurified
And night after night I just can’t seem to shake
My body’s obsession with staying awake
Will someone convince me I’m valuable?
‘Cause I’m getting less and less malleable
My self deprecation’s intentional
So this is my confessional
I’m heartbroke and tired, the same old kinda thing
That you’ve heard millions of times from everybody
My feelings aren’t original and neither are my songs
The only unique thing about me is that I’ve survived this long
And I talk way too much and people say I’m pretentious
But I’ve never once thought myself bigger than other humans
And I hate the way my voice sounds right before I start to cry
And you don’t care about any of this and I know exactly why
But will someone convince me I’m valuable?
‘Cause I’m getting less and less malleable
My self-deprecation’s intentional
So this is my confessional
And I sulk right through the halls of my school
And I’m ignored and unnoticed like the uncommon fool
And I just keep on trying to stop myself from dying
So I find my old mask and I keep reapplying
The same old disguise just like “Everything’s fine,
and I’m totally satisfied with all of my life”
People see through the lies and I feel criticized
And they ask me why I cannot open my eyes
‘Cause I’m sleeping that’s all I want to do
Just be sleeping till the day is done in through
I know I’d be all right if I could spend my nights
Fucking sleeping
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You Told Me Nothing
04:44
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I finally had the courage to tell you what I wanted
But as it turns out the past week's been a lie
I don't know what to think anymore, I'm feeling hurt and haunted
I'd like to have an explanation but would you even tell me why
You told me nothing
Nothing at all
You told me nothing
Nothing at all
Not a single word to your response, a simple no would've been fine
But instead you hide in silence and fear for what I might do
Rejection is something that's not new to me, but you have crossed a line
Well what a week wasted away I regret ever speaking to you
You told me nothing
Nothing at all
You told me nothing
Nothing at all
When I walk outside the skies are darker than grey
And sadly it reminds me of everything that you didn't say
You told me nothing
Nothing at all
You told me nothing
Nothing at all
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Cross Country Bound
02:08
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Well I love the city and the city loves me back
Yeah I love this city from the roads to the railroad tracks
But the women that seem to love me most
Are hangin’ out on the opposite coasts
Well I guess my heart is just cross country bound
Well I’m on a train but I ain’t goin’ nowhere
I love this town but sometimes I wanna get out of here
‘Cause every night and every day
I long for something far away
Well I guess my heart is just cross country bound
Well I love the city and the city treats me right
From the sunlit days to building brightening nights
But State Street just don’t have enough
Deserving women to have my love
Well I guess my heart is just cross country bound
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Two Strangers
03:08
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Two strangers could have more in common than two best friends
Like how a demon from Hell could fall in love with a Godsend
Two strangers could have more in common than two best friends
Like how movie versions novels never eventually get it right in the end
Two strangers sitting in silence
Two strangers sitting in silence
She likes Pearl Jam and I like Adam Ant
She likes Alkaline Trio, I’m not a huge fan but I could deal with that
We’ve got both of our eyes glued to our phones ignoring the situation
Stern looks on both of our faces, two strangers afraid to start a conversation
Two strangers sitting in silence
Two strangers sitting in silence
She’s got black fingernails, well I once had black fingernails
She’s got a pair of studded jeans, well I once had a pair of studded jeans
She’s got red, red hair, well I never had red, red hair
But both my mother and father did, that really doesn’t matter, just thought I’d mention
Two strangers sitting in silence
Two strangers sitting in silence
Two strangers sitting in silence
Two strangers sitting in silence
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Love Beats The Demon
03:37
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As days fall and I lay awake in the night
Thinking if everything in my life will soon be all right
Well I truly believe if your heart’s on your sleeve
You’ll never get nowhere, you’ll never want to leave
So get up and stop all your weepin’
‘Cause if there’s one thing I know, love beats the demon
As I crawl and stumble through all my mistakes
I brush all the dust off my shoulders and I know that things will surely be okay
So if your heart feels broken apart
Just revel in the patchwork and get ready to restart
And soon you’ll see the sun gleamin’
‘Cause if there’s one thing I know, love beats the demon
As I recall the times I’ve felt weak and alone
Somebody shows up and becomes more important that they’ll ever know
And I get obsessed and it’s not for the best
But at least I’m attaching myself to happiness
And then I go back to my sleepin’
‘Cause if there’s one thing I know, love beats the demon
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Polar Vortex Blues
03:04
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It’s cold and it’s snowy and the wind is hard and harsh
When I’m old I’m going to try and take care of my heart
The temperature is fifteen below and I’m going to try to learn how to let go
It’s cold and it’s snowy and the wind is hard and harsh
It’s cold and I’m freezing and my bedroom is lonelier than me
When I’m old I’ll be believing that I’ll be able to break free
From my own mind that dictates these rhymes and I’ll make sure to smile before it’s my time
It’s cool and I’m freezing and my bedroom is lonelier than me
It’s cold and I’m trembling the brightness still leaks through the dark
When I’m old I’ll be sending shockwaves of lost love to my heart
When the doctors hear me croak and yell “Clear” and I manage to make it and somehow be here
I’ll be cold and trembling with the brightness leaking through the dark
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Stigmata Song
02:11
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Well the preacher tried to tell me
Jesus died today
Thousands of years ago
He was sent on his way
To the cross
To the cross
To the cross
He said they took some nails
And drove them through his palms
And Jesus wailed and moaned
Singin’ the old stigmata song
On the cross
On the cross
On the cross
Well I ain’t no prophet
And I’m losing life’s old game
And I’m telling ya I wouldn’t mind
A rusty spike right through my brain
To cross
To cross
To cross me out
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Since I Left You
03:57
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There’s a hole in my chest where my heart used to be
There’s a black vortex where my soul used to sleep
There’s nest in my stomach where the butterflies used to lie
And since I left you darling all I want to do is die
I’m a prick for the things that I said to the world
I’m regretful as I sing about how you’re no longer my girl
I’m useless and worn and beat up, sleepy-eyed
And since I left you darling all I want to do is die
I promised you all that I could give
And I didn’t give you shit
I should have been stronger to stay with you longer
And work my way through it
You can call me a bastard that’s the name I deserve
You can call me when you want to and scream those hateful words
You can call me out on all of my deception and my lies
‘Cause since I left you darling all I want to do is die
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White Capsules
03:21
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Well I’ll never be a father
And I’ll never have a wife
And I’ll never get no woman
To help me through my life
‘Cause if you ain’t got love
Then what’s the point of livin’?
I got this bottle of white capsules
And a million reasons to die
Well my buddies don’t come ‘round no more
But I don’t come ‘round them
‘Cause they’re too busy drinkin’
While I’m lyin’ in my bed
But if you don’t get sleep
Then what’s the point of dreamin’?
I got this bottle of white capsules
And a million reasons to die
Some say I have the music
Some say I got the mind
But music don’t sell shit no more
And thoughts are out of style
‘Cause if you don’t get happy
What’s the point of thinkin’?
I got this bottle of white capsules
And a million ways to die
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Let these guitar strings cut into my fingers
So deep that the pain from the callouses lingers
Forever like my inevitable tinnitus
I’m ready to be cast off from the brightness
‘Cause all I can muster up energy to think
About is how much I hate cute girls who drink
And even those that don’t give me physical pain
They all smile and I get aneurysms in my brain
And I just do not care that Phil Hoffman is dead
There are much more severe things to put in perspective
Like hundreds of friends who feel alone and lost
‘Cause some reckless drunk driving killed Sarah McCausland
And though she was not a big part in my life
I have seen the pain flow through acquaintances’ eyes
And I don’t get much sleep though I do have the power
But I stay up late and I write through the hours
When will I get out of this depressive state
When will I realize it’s never too late
When will I find the right things to acquire
I’m so lonesome I could set myself on fire
The snow will keep falling and temperature, colder
We go through the motions and keep getting older
And losing all track of what we could be doing
But constantly tracking the things that we’re losing
And taking advantage of all of our privileges
Treating our gluttony like it is sacrilege
Well I’ve sinned much more than my hands can amount to
I waste so much time dead asleep in my classrooms
And teachers are worried I won’t do my work
And I’m worried they’re right like completion is clerical
Well I will not be educated by God
‘Cause he never took one damn second to respond
And I sit in my room all throughout the weekends
I stumble back in, eyes look like they’ve been beaten
Like anything anyone says will make me crack
If I had my own choice I would never go back
I could get away from all of the judgment and stares
And if I stopped showing up, tell me who really would care?
This building and the world aren’t the first things I want to expire
I’m so lonesome I could set myself on fire
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L. Mounts Chicago, Illinois
Singer of songs. Abstainer of substances. Bringer of plagues.
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